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I let my step father rape me to protect my sister from him. Seeing how she lives her life now, I think I made a mistake.

I let my step father rape me to protect my sister from him. Seeing how she lives her life now, I think I made a mistake.

 
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My case is just the oppposite. My sister thinks she is better than me.I took her place often to protect her.She is beautiful and I am scarred.
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The ultimate Catch-22. If you would not have made such a huge sacrifice, you would have been traumatized from what you saw. talk to your sister and seek therapy, don't internalize this.
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kill the son of a b**** if he is not already dead!
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I did the same thing. My dad was already doing what he did to me late at night getting me from the bed where I slept with my brother and taking me to his room. But when he was mad enough at my brothers to kill them I would grab his attention, once I asked him to tteach me to french kiss and I felt so dirty. My brother a year younger than me does nothing but talk bad about me. He has always tried to torture me in some way and helped my first marriage to fade when tempting my ex-husband with other girls to be with. My brother two years younger than me is totally broken. Something really bad must have happened to him when I ran away from there because he won't tell us and he is addicted to everything there is, anything to keep him from thinking clearly. I hated my Dad but since have forgiven him, I hope that my brothers will be ok. But I am telling you that I do not regret one day doing what I had to do to keep my brothers from getting more of the beatings. I am glad I protected them and you should be proud of yourself too. She doesnt live in misery today and you don't feel guilty for not protecting her, because those feelings are way worse to have. God bless sweety
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I protected a retarded cousin. I puked on the bed when he died in the hospital. They didn't get it. My mom didn't believe either. I got six years of therapy. My Daddy was in VietNam and during the six years of therapy he finally said " I thought something wasn't right"??? I am well now. It is a picture you don't have to look at (not a piece of furniture you fall over every day) and can turn to the wall if you wish. I loved him (my grandfather) but I wrote "pedophile" on the back of every picture I have of him (alot)! It helps also. You are a hero without a medal.
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To original poster: I know, don't you hate it when they say "He will pay one day" crap? He will not pay. That's just something someone wrote in a book to make them feel better about a hopeless situation. If you want to get over it, get even. There are people you could hire to take care of it for you.
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the sad thing is she glorifies waht u did. She thinks its ok to have unhealthy sexual relationships. Either that or she thinks ure a slut. She didnt understand what u were doing and she's very well off and she refuses to accept u because of what u did. :( XOXOXO Betty G.
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maybe she knew all along of your pain and has a hidden guilt that has destroyed her self-esteem,or that he destroyed it when you could not be there to protect her.seeking councelling together may help both of you.
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What makes you think you protected her? From mine and many others' experience that is a fantasy. Maybe what you condemn in her is her reaction to the same trauma.
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