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I always thought about how I would ask you to marry me. Now I think about ways I can forget you.

I always thought about how I would ask you to marry me. Now I think about ways I can forget you.

 
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Funny how that works, isn't it.
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no. i see no humor in the situation, only reassurance that whis world is turning to one big pile of unhappy corpses.(GM)
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Yes dont go away mad girl...just go away
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Beautiful ring. At least you don't have to get laywers involved this way! Sorry just hope it works out next time.
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^ I would need lawyers after i put her in a grave though, wont I?
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^You think??
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^ no nevermind lawyers. I PLeAD GUILTY. I do my time. prison couldnt leave me anymore broken than she did.
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^I'm sorry to hear you are so hurt. Pain does bring out dark thoughts sometimes. Just remember a relationship goes both ways, and you have to ask yourself did you maybe cause her pain as well? I know i left a man because he caused me so much pain, and I don't think he even gets what he did. He thinks i'm the villian for leaving. Maybe if you think about things for a while you won't be so angry with her.
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Find someone new, you had a bad one, keep looking for a better one! You won't have much to choose from if you go to prison. Think about your past relationships, how much it hurt, and how irrelevant it is now.
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You?re right. My anger towards her and the situation has subsided a great deal. I know I caused her pain, and I regret it; however, I have learned from it. I was too proud to admit to her that I f***ed things up. I was a Jerk! I deserve never to see her and whine my heart out forever, but I will never let her know. That is why I will not contact her for a long time. If we ever meet again, I would have lived a greater life than I ever thought capable. If that day ever comes, it will be like coming home. In the meantime, I will rediscover humility and peace.
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(part 2)I should have warned her that I was a tornado. I should have given her the best of me. I have since sought help and made a lasting effort to discipline myself constantly to be a better man. I do not do this for her; I do it to prevent myself from becoming a phantom. Darling, if we ever see each other again, you will not even recognize me. The devil you knew will be long gone. NO matter where my journeys take me: I love you and forgive you. Please forgive me for not understanding who I was, but thank you for telling me what is wasn?t. Please forgive me for keeping these secrets, and allow me the chance to earn your respect. Please forgive my arrogance and false pride, and let me thank you for telling me how to improve my people skills. Let me thank you for telling me to get my shit together. You?re advice worked! I am sorry for telling you that you were wicked things, and thank you for teaching me when to shut my f***ing mouth. I hope I brought at least a little love in your life, but judging from all of the wrongs I?ve done; the thread that tied you to me is gone. GO NOW! I will find you before 12-21-2012 ready to die for you if I have to. (angel)
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I should have warned her that I was a tornado. I should have given her the best of me. I have since sought help and made a lasting effort to discipline myself constantly to be a better man. I do not do this for her; I do it to prevent myself from becoming a phantom. Darling, if we ever see each other again, you will not even recognize me. The devil you knew will be long gone. NO matter where my journeys take me: I love you and forgive you. Please forgive me for not understanding who I was, but thank you for telling me what is wasn?t. Please forgive me for keeping these secrets, and allow me the chance to earn your respect. Please forgive my arrogance and false pride, and let me thank you for telling me how to improve my people skills. Let me thank you for telling me to get my shit together. You?re advice worked!
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One minute you're talking about wanting to kill her, and the next you're saying you will die for her. If she reads this she will know this is you, so there will be no more secrets. If you are leaving, you should find a way to get word to her. If she finds out you are gone and didn't even send her an email, it will hurt her terribly. As far as earning respect, running away and hiding your true feelings from her are not the way to get that done. You never know what can happen tomorrow, if there even will be a tomorrow...
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I dont think at this point it matters. she has found someone new, and There is nothing left for me to say. It would be nice is she found this secret. Saves me the humiliation.
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^Sounds like a copout to me. How can you be so sure she has found someone new when you won't even talk to her? If you feel that way then why would you be plsnning to find her before 12-21-2012? There is always something left to say...
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I know because she told me that she was with someone and that she was in love. I am happy for her. trust me. I have exhausted all forms of communication and I am sick of putting my foot in my mouth. I wouldnt kill her, i just have a strange and sarcastic sense of humor.
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There is someone waiting for you, don't be sad for long, go find her.
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^no. I am pretty sure there is no one waiting for me!
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^ I am not sad. I am happy, and I wish her all the happiness in the world. My journey is much more important than finding someone. If i find anything it will be the wisdom that I have still lingering within me. That is the beauty of a my briken heart. I am able to come back and depend on myself for everything. like it should be. I dont need anyone else, and i have always lived by that rule. Maybe it is why I freak out in relationships, and end up destroying them. I am not used to sharing my life with anyone. I never had an example of what love really was. I had to make my own assumptions.
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Puppy love... how sweet...
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the ladies love puppies!
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^^^It is good that you are a self-reliant, strong individual. You do need to learn how to let your guard down enough,so that the person you are with feels like they have a place in your heart. You don't need an example of what love really is. It is different for everyone to some degree...just follow your intuition. Trust what your heart tells you...if you have feelings for someone let them know, don't push them away and make them feel unwanted. Sharing your life with someone can be the most beautiful fulfilling experience you may ever have.
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My feelings are rarely right, and they cripple me! My intuition, I must addmit, is lacking. I dont want to look weak to her. I dont want to be some coward begging her to come back to my life, and she definitly needs to come to terms, and deal with her own problems. I have nothing to share with her right now. I want to focus on myself, so I choose to silence my feelings for her, but I will never know if the fire will ever burn out. I will have the best part of her, when I give my own BEST. I am grateful for her time in my life. I confuse this gratitude for love, I suppose. It takes two, so Perhaps I should not make her out to be some saint, because placing others on pedistals: just puts me in a pit. :D So, yeah....I am doing better after seing some positive feedback. It seems ever now and then I miss her again, probably just because she gave me the kick in the ass i neaded. some days i get depressed but I just remember to be humble and open to new experiences. Doors are opening now that I have the eyes to see them. thank you everyone for commenting.
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